No Woman should have alll that POWER

09Dec10

I can’t always express the things that I feel or see… so i try to find creative ways to share them.

Recently I took up a childhood passion of mine and decided to give it my best shot. Ever since I was small I had wanted to be a fashion designer. But I was discouraged, people didn’t take me seriously and I was told it was too hard of an industry to enter and the money would not be guaranteed. So I forgot about it, which didn’t turn out to be a good idea. See I’ve learned that when you suppress who you are… for any reason …. You risk losing your balance.

My Africa/ Middle eastern travels changed me forever… and it gave me more balance. But I was still in need of something else. I took up the opportunity to design a collection for my senior project at school. My major is Textile and Apparel Management with a concentration in fashion development product management. What am I gonna do with that? Whatever I wanna do .. gosh its cool now! (shameless kanye pub). The other option was a 20 page paper. Which may have been the easier choice BUT I decided to take  the road less travelled.

See, I understand that I ALWAYS need a challenge. I know that when I push myself the hardest I get the best results. I like extreme situations… I like to conquer. Now what you must understand is that recently I had been feeling like I there was something I was missing.. I thought I need a companion, but that didn’t help, I lost 13 lbs, but that wasn’t enuff (it was a great start!!). I took my hair from red to jet black and I pierced my nose…again. But at the end of the day I still felt empty… and my apathetic attitude began to grow… life bored me, people disappointed me, and there was no brilliance no love and no art in my life.  But a beautiful thing happened as I begin the preliminary sketches for the class… something sparked in my and I become enthralled! I felt infatuation again and I craved more and more of this art form… the fabric… the sewing… the 2D- 3D construction all of it enticed me. Perhaps it was the lack of skill in the area of sewing that prompted my thirst for a challenge. Maybe it was the fact that I DON’T SEW. Or the fact that I had little patience, no direction and no clear understanding of what I was getting into…  I mean I have a B.S. from a technical institute.. as my aunt says “I know how to ‘cook’ fabric…but this new passion whatever it was, I fell in love. For me it was the perfect chemistry.

Now bear with me… this journey I am on , of graduating and seeing the world and establishing myself  is actually my way of introducing myself into womanhood. I can’t explain what I feel but my priorities are changing, my intellect is growing and I have never loved myself sooo much. God has placed so many different women in my life and for the ones that were already there, he has opened my eyes… I look at everything differently; beauty, love, sex, learning, serving, praying, passion… everything has new meaning to me now. It began in Egypt and Dubai where I was so inspired by these women whom the world may see as oppressed…but I found strength in their modesty… something very different from who I was in my teenage years. I found beauty in how the women in Africa and Dubai chose to identify. I took my inspiration and applied it to my own life. And this collection is what I gave birth to.

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I used Dj Kue’s Remix to Kanye West “Power” if your smart enuff u already kno why

 

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Being a woman is such a beautiful journey and I have only begun.

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